Hey anonymous,

Thank you.

Who are you?

💗💗

I feel like the biggest piece of shit, right now it’s not even funny. I feel like everyone hates me, and like I’ve let a lot of people down. I was having such a good day, I spent it with my mom and my girlfriend.. then it all got fucked up with a text message. I knew I should t of replied. But deep down k really wanted to - and I wanted it. I feel like no matter how far in life I go I always fall down the hole again and I know it’s all up to me. But damn I just fucked up 5 whole months. But, in those 5 months I felt like I was never happy. I suppose I’ve never been truly happy to begin with, but, now I feel the worst I have been feeling. I feel ashamed, embarrassed, like I’ve done something horribly wrong. And, honestly I have. I fucked it all up again. Here I am at 5:00 in the morning on my phone in my bed after just sitting in my old house for fucking hours. I learned a lot about a couple of people, and I feel a little bit wiser. But, definetly not in the right ways. I don’t even know if I’m making any sense. I haven’t been on here in so fucking long, and so much has happened. I don’t even know anymore.